Can the Can’t and the Rant


It’s been a lifetime in the past 24 hours. I know I am supposed to be irrevocably happy these few days but really this birthday seems to be hanging like a noose around my neck. I think by far the best birthday I have had was the one I gave myself in 2005 when I […]

June 7, 2007

Day of Experiments


As I had promised myself, I did indeed try to keep tabs on myself, literally. And it was so difficult. We spend so much of our time in self-absorption that we can rarely pull ourselves out enough to contemplate self-awareness. There were moments in the day when I had to FORCE myself to be consciously […]

June 5, 2007



I had a strange dream last night. Well, not that I have ordinary dreams anyway. I dreamed of Vimla – old pal of mine deserted in the annals of memory – sitting and pounding wheat with a huge pestle in this decrepit farm. Strange really, how the mind digs these seemingly surreal images from the […]

June 4, 2007


China, Travel

Time. How it rockets through these days! I cannot believe that I am reaching the day of what might be my last journey into China. Three more weeks to go. Where have all these months gone? I am filled with a longing for home – yet the wonderful joy of companionship that I had here […]

June 3, 2007

Love and Care


Another steaming hot day. My mind is still unsettled by the days of yesterday. Of all the feelings in the world, there is none more sinking than that of disappointment. Especially when it is disappointment in another who you trust. Today has a strangely surreal feeling to it. It seems as if the events of […]

May 29, 2007

Mundane Monday


It’s been another blazing hot day here. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw that the temperature yesterday was 40 degrees Celsius! That’s the hottest sun I have ever been under and can’t say I liked it. Today, it was a day of two good classes in the morning and a movie in the […]

May 28, 2007

Lounging in Luoyang

China, Travel

Did I actually see a sunrise yesterday? Not that sunrises are rare in this part of the world but that I was awake early enough to see one! Yesterday was the day of the mad mad journey to Luoyang. The journey started on a fairly sane note. Ruby arrived at the dot of 6AM but […]

May 27, 2007

Loveless Love


I love alliterations. There is something of the rhythm they impart to words. My last post here was in the evening. It was a post of anger, rave and rant – a post of despair – and a post of surrender to the inevitable misery of it all. But I don’t regret it. Nor do […]

May 25, 2007

A Jumbled Friday


It’s been a while since I posted here. The last few days have been hectic. I remember the last Friday I was alone in the apartment in the evening as Birdie had gone on a date with one of her suitors. And strangely, I got so much work done at that time. When Birdie is […]

May 25, 2007

Torpede Tuesdays


I thought I was energized. Now, strangely as I write this post all I can look forward to is the lure of the bed behind me and blessed sleep to come. Sleep, ah, that reminds me. I had a wonderful safari dream last night. Complete with a tiger, stampeding elephants, and pounding horses. Some of […]

May 22, 2007