To Choose To Live

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Let me tell you a story. A travel story. In 2003, I was teaching Spoken English in a tiny city called Lianyungang, China.  It was the first time I was in a foreign country. Living by myself. Teaching a language I wasn’t confident speaking. And had narrowly escaped the confines of a Chinese prison. (A story […]

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A Fall For Time


Musings

Picture this. It’s a cloudy, overcast morning in Bangalore. There is a hint of rain in the air and it is refreshingly pleasant at 21 degrees Celsius. I am a bit late for my run. It’s 6:45AM. I had spent an inordinate time looking out of my window today. I look at my phone, wondering […]

June 1, 2018

Meeting My Adopted Son


Musings

The entrance to the St. Joseph’s college auditorium in Bangalore’s upscale Shantinagar was packed with vehicles. I had parked my car further down the road and I just waded in through the throng of visitors. Friendly volunteers guided me to the auditorium in front of which chair were set up. Kids were milling around. Adults […]

May 27, 2018

When Grief Casts A Soft Glow


Musings

May 9th marked six months without my darling Pluto. Six months of grief. Six months of missing something that I didn’t know I would miss like this. Six months of a loss that never would pass away, but which wise people tell, and which I know from experience only subsides into a dull fist of […]

May 15, 2018

What I Read In April


Everyday

I had a break from all work for about five days in April. I was away in the Maldives where I spent a lot of time by the sea, soaking in some sun, and absorbing a lot of words. Even now, when I close my eyes, I can feel the colors of the sea in […]

May 5, 2018

How I Am Learning To Love – Myself.


Musings

“I have become too comfy calling myself a piece of shit worth nothing….no one appreciates the amount of work I do. I look like a fool……..etc etc. I want to come out of this self-pity condition and work on believing myself. Stop depending on external ppl to tell me how good I am, what I […]

April 19, 2018

Why I Don’t Trust Doctors


Musings

Trust is a loaded word. Probably, the one word we use the most without really thinking about it. When we are managers, we tell our team, “I trust you to to handle this.” We tell our spouses, “I trust you to be with me always.” We use trust so much that it has lost its […]

April 10, 2018

Why I Meditate


Musings

I spent the last week of March, much like the last week of December year, at a Vipassana retreat. This was a 3-day retreat, much shorter than the 10-day silent retreat. This too requires complete silence with no contact with the outside world. Every time I come back from these sessions, I am always asked: […]

April 8, 2018

The Ugly Art Of Politics At Work


Musings

In my home state of Karnataka, next month is election month. The messy world of politics doesn’t interest me at all. I sometimes think I should be a more committed citizen. I go, stand in the queue, and vote each time. That’s all I do. I am not an activist of the city. I am […]

April 5, 2018

The Lost Art Of Conversation


Musings

I don’t talk much on the phone. That’s what I used to say before I stopped using messaging tools like What’s App. Since then, I have been making an effort to pick up the phone when someone calls me. Smile. Yesterday, I got off the phone after talking to a friend living in The Netherlands, […]

April 3, 2018