Remembering My Brother


Musings, Relationships

It’s almost evening here in Bangalore. The day has been overcast with a few patches of sunshine. It’s time for the part of the day I look forward to – my Skype “sessions” with Travelling Birdy. But when she calls me in tears today because of something awful that had happened, I react as I […]

June 21, 2018

A Rainbow Is The Universe Saying Hi


Musings

I believe in synchronicity. I always have. Of late, I have been going through this phase where I see parallel numbers often. The 07:07s or 11:11s or 09:09s. This happens several times during the day. I think of a person and suddenly that person’s name flashes across on the street sign or billboard or on […]

June 17, 2018

Where Do I Admit My Flaws?


Musings

I reconnected with a good man last weekend – a disconnection that had been orchestrated by me, and the reconnection equally orchestrated by me. That man was completely gracious in accepting my craziness and was undeniably kind in his response. Today, I sat in the absolutely lovely surroundings of the NGMA (National Gallery of Modern […]

June 10, 2018

A Fall For Time


Musings

Picture this. It’s a cloudy, overcast morning in Bangalore. There is a hint of rain in the air and it is refreshingly pleasant at 21 degrees Celsius. I am a bit late for my run. It’s 6:45AM. I had spent an inordinate time looking out of my window today. I look at my phone, wondering […]

June 1, 2018

When Grief Casts A Soft Glow


Musings, Relationships

May 9th marked six months without my darling Pluto. Six months of grief. Six months of missing something that I didn’t know I would miss like this. Six months of a loss that never would pass away, but which wise people tell, and which I know from experience only subsides into a dull fist of […]

May 15, 2018

How I Am Learning To Love – Myself.


Featured, Musings

“I have become too comfy calling myself a piece of shit worth nothing….no one appreciates the amount of work I do. I look like a fool……..etc etc. I want to come out of this self-pity condition and work on believing myself. Stop depending on external ppl to tell me how good I am, what I […]

April 19, 2018

When The Universe Laughs At Us


Musings

At the stroke of midnight, or a little after, on April 9th, Goodreads, the social network for bookworms, converted my personal profile to an Author page. It was with bemusement that I looked at my new-look profile and then glanced in disbelief at the followers it had merged from the previous Author page. Out of […]

April 11, 2018

Why I Don’t Trust Doctors


Musings

Trust is a loaded word. Probably, the one word we use the most without really thinking about it. When we are managers, we tell our team, “I trust you to to handle this.” We tell our spouses, “I trust you to be with me always.” We use trust so much that it has lost its […]

April 10, 2018

Why I Meditate


Musings

I spent the last week of March, much like the last week of December year, at a Vipassana retreat. This was a 3-day retreat, much shorter than the 10-day silent retreat. This too requires complete silence with no contact with the outside world. Every time I come back from these sessions, I am always asked: […]

April 8, 2018

The Lost Art Of Conversation


Musings, Relationships

I don’t talk much on the phone. That’s what I used to say before I stopped using messaging tools like What’s App. Since then, I have been making an effort to pick up the phone when someone calls me. Smile. Yesterday, I got off the phone after talking to a friend living in The Netherlands, […]

April 3, 2018